Thursday, July 30, 2009
Hi, i feel so dead today. :(
I read someone's blog archives just now and found out a secret about someone else. Someone important. Well not really a secret actually, but then i started to be quite panicky.
What if the person is not me? I really dont think i can take it if it's someone else. Probably just cry from hurt and emo for the rest of my life.
Sometimes i just really wanna express my feelings and not care about how others might tease and laugh and think nonsence or whatever. I just want to take out the black book, my take, and flip through the pages, and show how much i really cherish those actions. I want to show that i'm not heartless, it's just that i dont dare to express myself. Such a bloody coward.
If it's not me, then i guess nothing matters anymore right?
Why cant i find the courage in myself and ask: "Why are you so sad today?" or maybe say something to help?
I'm a coward. Just another coward who tries to hide everything.
Things may become disgraceful, but do i really care?
LT
5:53 AM